厌倦

我的心情好复杂。
不知道为什么，对周遭的事情
我觉得好疲倦，好闷，好累，好厌倦

好想搬家~换家具~把所有旧的都丢了~
好想疯狂买很多新的东西~衣服~鞋子~
好想换个造型~一个和我现在完全不一样的造型
好想换个发型~虽然我不知道我的头发还可以有什么突破-。-
好想换张脸~一个别人不会一眼就认出来的脸
好想放个长假~谁也不见，谁也不联络，让我静静的一个人
好想回老家~陪公公喝茶，帮姑姑买菜，见见多年不见的同学
好想躲起来。。。。我好想逃。。。

要是我真的这么做
是不是这些糟糕的情绪就可以好起来？

我不想一起身，天天就重复做一样的事
上班，吃饭，下班，回家，睡觉。。。

这是是暂时的吗？
为什么我对所有事物觉得很纳闷很厌倦？

不安

今天心情不太好
近来压力好大，我不知道是哪来的压力，感觉快透不过气了
我的工作还好，并没有给我很大的压力
或许是 太多复杂的事令我很不安
或许是 感情的不稳，不安无形给我一种压力

越是害怕失去只会更失去
或许我的担心,不安,全是多余的

你是我的吗?
很可笑 我真的不敢大声的说你是我的

因为我觉得你可能可以拥有更好的
因为我对自己没有信心


笑容背后隐藏的 是我一万个不安
只是你不可能会知道

你总会告诉我，在你的心中我是那么的完美
只是，事实上我并不是

但，能够当你最完美的女生
我无法形容我有多开心
同时也无法形容那压力有多大

完美。。。万一有天，你发现
我比平凡更平凡呢

你 会不会
转身 头也不回

从此消失在我的世界 ?

Nothing

Hey yea !! ( say hi to my blogger )

Erm so long time dint update my blog le -.-''

Near '' fa mei '' le

omg -.-''

Today erm -.-'' mood = bad

and i have really nothing to say -.-''

Gift from Prince-S

Today i received a gift from him...well its a big surprice...and pink roses....i wonder how can he know everything LOL...i so love him -.- out of control le -.-

That day i show him at msn....those thing...haha cos im planing to buy for cny...then angel email me ah...she always can find great item XD then today i received them -.- omg...so so so surprice !!!

My moodly all gone le XD ...

Juz feel so happiness XD

Argh i love the flower too XD

everything in pink...haha my dear dear so cute...the way he write the card XD

Make me touching and make me warm...

Muacks...Now i know u care about me...cos i know...if not really love u de ppl wont do those thing de....juz because im moodly and feel sorry for that day make me cry...then he try his best to make me feel better and believe he's real....

Yea dear i trust u...cos ppl will lie...heart wont lie...i really can feel your heart when im reading your card...i love u forever.

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Im now at company...actually i had alot of thing need to do but...im just moodly....
and i dont think so i can handle my jobs well today.

yesterday i go somewhere...well the place is boring me....but cos of some reason then i have no choice and i have to go too...

And my dear is too tired then fall in sleep le...well...its ok cos he is sick...and today he have to OT till mid night...and then im alone at car and looking to the sky...

Yea i so miss him.but what can i do ? i can just look at the sky...the stars is shinning bright...its a beautiful night..how i wish that he can be here...we could just look at the sky..without talking wihtout doing anything else...thats enuff for me....

Im totally moodly and tired today...maybe i start to lose the feeling safe for our love...sometime i feel myself is so useless...i cant control anything...if he is free,then he'll find me...if he is busy...then i'll be waiting...all i can do is just STAND BY....i only can stand by for him...other then that...nothing i can do le...he sick...i cant be there take care of him...iszzit he also feel the same to me ? thats y he feel wanna give up before?
he is totally control my heart and my mind...
I dunno why...i really feel so sad...he will be mine forever ? i dun think so...

Wao i hate this feeling...i told myself dun thinking so much...
maybe im just down thats y thinking thing in bad...

Is there anything....anyone...can heal me pls ?